I'm not really sure what has happened to me, but over time, I have become less tolerant and patient of others. In normal circumstances, I would normally ignore or laugh irritations away, but it seems apparent, that I have become cankerous, cranky, grumpy and angsty too. This became all the more manifested after I signed up to be a relief teacher - as if it was not already frustrating to teach monsters who couldn't care less. Perhaps I am projecting too high an expectation on those poor kids, who probably came from bad family backgrounds and circumstances and thus are the way they are today, but somehow I feel that there is no excuse in not putting in effort to at least listen, or display some semblance of manners. How bloody rude and obnoxious can people get??As someone has said, maybe Brianhyde is popping out his monstrous face. Go back! I don't want Brianhyde. I want Brianekyll back!

God grant me the serenity to accept the things
I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and
wisdom to know the difference.

God grant me the serenity to deal with all the idiots that cross my path as well. (And the wisdom to know where to hide the bodies :P )

I need to get out more. I need a breath of fresh air. I need the peace that only God can give. These few weeks have seen an emotional roller coaster ride in my life - a ride of worrying, frustration, envy, anger, irritation, tiredness, sadness, contemplation...It would be an understatement if I said I feel overwhelmed. I need to start dating God and spending more time with Him.