Every fibre and nerve within me is restless. It's like an energiser bunny trying to rip off its bunny suit and jump off into the horizons. I am itching to be involved with stage work or a film. Although I know that they will not provide very viable long-term career options for me, I am itching to do something with them anyhow.

Yesterday I went for my Masters pre-admission medical checkup and the doctor suddenly went into this tirade of the need to lose weight. Very strange considering how I never did ask him anything about it. He just went, "Oh you want to lose weight right? What are you doing now about your fitness?" and he rattled on about commitment, cutting down portions, walking because it's a good thing.... You know you're plus size when the doctor begins to talk about weight loss, even though it is not part of the medical checkup nor something requested.

I realised I should have signed up for the international masters thingy, because doing a Literary Studies masters in NUS is intensely limiting. I realised too, that due to a conflict of interests between doing a necessary S & D course and doing masters, that I will only be able to do Literature modules in my first semester (and hopefully it's only for my first semester). Thank goodness, I've already done Asian International Cinema. It's a pity that I can't do Classical Theories of Asian Theatre which falls on a Wednesday. I will have to keep reminding myself that I chose to be a poor academic in making (I don't understand how everyone thinks students doing their Masters are rich, especially when NUS only gives a stipend of $1500, and I've my Tuition Fee loan to pay off and there's a need to give my mum at least $400 a month, leaving me with a mere $200 to subsist on) because this is a long term investment and I am working towards my dreams of teaching Theatre Studies and, AND with a masters degree, I'll be able to earn so much more.